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Happy New Year!

Happy New Year, everyone!

This whole time I thought I posted this.

It is always interesting to watch how the world celebrates the new year. Isn’t it fascinating that the we do not ring the new year all at once, at the same time? People uploaded photos of delicious food, their OOTD, their houses adorned with NYE decorations, “2017” sunglasses, supplies they spent a good amount of money on, and crazy videos of the countdown – with a lot of hashtags I did not bother to read. haha! A lot of people posted on Facebook how ready they’re for 2017, how it’s going to be the best year -I applaud you for being positive. Some remembered 2016 as a great year -I am happy that you had a great year. A few thanked the things they experienced last year -the good and the bad (a thankful hear is good medicine). Others complained how 2016 sucked. If I were to post what was on my mind, I would have written the latter. I would not even include myself to the few who were thankful. It was not a great year for me. I did not enjoy 2016 because I did not choose to enjoy it. My heart was not grateful. I was miserable. My walk with God became stagnant. I did not invest in people. I was not myself. Thankfully, God is  ALWAYS gracious to this Filipina.

-i just touched the screen and scrolled up thinking it was an iPad. haha-

I decided to take a break from social media – Facebook and Instagram. I’ve been spending a lot of time going out with my parents, reading books, exercising, and editing videos. The unplugging is helping me a lot and I’ve got joy down in my heart.

The thing is, I want my heart to be freed of bitterness and be ruled by gratitude. To be thankful was something I did not do. I probably complained a lot about what happened in 2016 (and 2015). I got busy preventing those things to never happen again because it hurt like crazy. The walls I built made me happy, but they did not make me feel fulfilled. I was afraid to let new people into my life, into my heart. I became hesitant to share details of my life. But I remember the beauty of being vulnerable. My prayer this year is to be able to invest genuinely in people like how I used to. I want to meet new friends. First and foremost, to thank God for every relationship He gives me. I want to be thankful for what it brings me – joy and heartache.

When we focus on the bitter things in life, we won’t be able to taste the sweetness it also has. I am better now. Thank you to my support system – the ones who experienced the not so good side of me: my parents. Thank you, LORD, for your abounding grace and mercy.

I want to give thanks FOR EVERYTHING.

In Christ, Isha

 

 

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Isha doodles

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Chilly morning in Long Island. The smell of brewing coffee of my neighbor – I call him DD, a lot of us call him that – beckoned me to get a cup. I have a medium iced coffee now on my right hand and a pen on my left hand. I am doodling right now. That icon I posted isn’t new to anyone. According to PlayStore this app has 500 millions downloads. I am not one of those phones that has it. A week ago I unistalled this app; and it’s not the first time I’ve done it. There was once I didn’t touch it for a year. Anyway, I wanted to unplug myself from this app because it is ruining me emotionally and worse of all spiritually. If I tally the hours and days I spent tapping on this icon, scrolling down, pressing the ‘heart’, and leaving comments, it definitely has gotten more of my attention than the One I’m supposed to give my undivided attention to.

Verdict: GUILTY


I’ll be expressing more of my growing concern on social media next time. To sum up what I really want to do:

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// ishael

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